I don't even know what to say. How to begin. But fuck, I -

I need to make a record, for myself, at least. And to explain why I fucking hate all of you bloggers.

No, there was no tall faceless horror at the date. I did not see He That Is or whatever the fuck the proxies call him. That is the problem. And it's all your fucking fault that she died and I can't even - no, need to try to make this make sense.

We hung out, cuddled, did some dorky stuff and held hands and went shopping and talked and...

oh god...

It was late. I had decided to look up a recipe for some goddamn thing that required chopping veggies - I can't even remember what the hell it was.

...She started talking about the fucking blogs and vlogs, asking me what I watched and how many I followed and shit. She sounded kind of weird about it, but I figured it was just that maybe she had fallen behind or something.

why was i still holding the knife why why why

She asked me to look at her because her surprise was ready. I didn't see anyhthing when I looked over. Not a weird shadow, or a guy in a suit or anything, and I waited a bit. She started talking about how proud of me she was because I like to know htings and shitshitshit she sounded so happy and then she asked me to take her hand and thats when I stopped figuring out what was going on.

She thought a fucking internet meme was right beside her. She thought that he was fucking there and when I told her that I couldnt see him...

she looked like i punched her but i would never hurt her on purpose not on purpose im so so sorry

Then she sort of ran at me. Or jumped or something, because she moved a lot faster than I thought and I was freaking out and she was shouting something and fucking guess what happened since I'm typing this. She thought this whole goddamn story universe was real and she had an imaginary friend without a face, and she thought I would join her in killing people that don't exist. And she knew the blogs and knew there were articles and websites and she thought they were all true


she never mentioned medical records or anything and "hey do you believe slendy is real and commands people to kill stuff for him" doesnt come up in talking and now shes dead and i ran and i dont know what to do and if im a murderer now and if i go to jail because i ran instead of turning in and i cant do anything

FUCK

I dont

Fuck you all
you did this

your fault

All fucking your fault

I shouldnt have said it should have lied

Fuck youi and your fucking stories

Not my fault not my fault not my fault I just held it and moved it was an accidetn

Shes dead

Guess Who Has a Date?~

Fuck yeah, leaving for Tezca's now. Her parents are out for the weekend.

This is going to make up for so much of my shitty month!

University

It is tiring. But pretty cool, and keeps me out of the house.

I kind of whined at Tezca that the goddamn quest she sent me on was barely anything complicated, and she promised she had something to show me that would be much cooler this weekend.

I'm looking forward to that, and to spending time with her. I always feel better with her.

Less angry. Less afraid.

Fuck, it's not like anyone reads these anyways.

Finally

Things are looking up.

Well, sort of. I am... not entirely okay, but I'm hardly one to rant about it to a handful of barely interested followers.

I started university. Courses are interesting, and I'm pretty sure I'll be able to keep up with my good marks. Tezca's found a place that we could stay in for the year, so we'll probably split the rent.

My family was not that happy with this plan of me getting away from them, but they really can't say much about it. There was some trash talk thrown around about my choice of romantic partners, but it's not like Tezca will care about what some dumb fucks call her.

My DS has gone missing, and I doubt I'll ever find it again. That is... not good, but bearable. Could be worse.

Blahblahblah, don't have much else to report, but some asshole had marked down Operator Symbols at a public school nearby. I actually spent some time examining them. Reading and watching all of this ensured that my skin is now very capable of crawling.

Isn't paranoia fun? And completely, utterly stupid?

An Explanation

Or my half-assed attempt at one without giving stuff away.

Stuff I really don't want to put all over the internet for my paltry few followers to read. University is starting next  week, I'm nervous about that, but more importantly.... Someone broke in, nothing was taken, stuff is moved around a lot and everyone is not happy.

And when people other than me are not happy, my laptop gets stolen, books get trashed and things are generally not congenial. So I figured it was better to run before that happened, but....

Shit. Don't want to go into this too much, but things are not going well and if Tezca pools with me I might have enough to find some place that is not this place to go to.

I clearly can't be cryptic. I just go into run on sentences. Lovely.

If I keep typing I will probably go into to much detail, so I guess I'll just shut up and try to placate my parents.

nothing was even fcking taken now stop fucking yelling at me i told you im careful about this sort of shit

goddamn it everything feels wrong do they think im not scared too

hate the fucking people around here

this post written with disregard for fucking grammar, deal with it

Shit Has Been Going Down

Or well, I've been out of the house. Not "let's chill in Starbucks" out of the house, but out out.

For those not intelligent enough to grasp my meaning, I ditched the house and my family and holed up at Tezca's for a few days. Someone broke into our house, and things got rather nasty when we got back from an outing to discover the house fucked up and all that.

Nasty enough that I decided to give my parents time to cool off. Also got the opportunity to do some random stuff for a friend, and got eighty bucks as a result. That was pretty nice.

So yeah, just happened to check in now. Seems like Robert is alive or dead or a ninja robot zombie Sage, Maduin is rather unreliable, Shaun is wanted and some other people are having shittier lives than usual. Well, it cheers me up.

At least I'm not a ninja robot zombie Sage.

Hey Guys

Yeah, guess who is back from camping and hiking? Climbing up rocks right beside a waterfall is fun. Being eaten alive by mosquitoes as soon as you veer away from said waterfall made it easy for me to decide what my favourite spot in the forest was.

No, I did not see the resident Eldritch Abomination there. There were no freaky cults, no blood sacrifice, and they even gave me my hoodie back when I left it at the food court. The worst crime that happened was a woman stealing a watch from Canadian Tire. Pretty damn idyllic, in my opinion.

Given I left you guys with a joke that apparently pissed at least one person (Blanche) off, I apologize for robbing you of the chance to call me a fucktard. No, I am not infected or sick or coughing or seeing tall pale faceless people in swanky suits. Also, I apparently killed someone thanks to being at camp. Sorry about that.

For those interested in what I actually did: campfires, s'mores, the works. I also played a bit of my Nuzlocke and a shitload of Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Time. I forgot that it had a plot. I forgot that its plot was fucking amazing. Cue me being glued to the DS for days on end.

Yeah, that's it.

Oh, and Tezca was very happy to see me when I came back. We hung out yesterday after the drive. Even though I was totally exhausted, we managed to have fun~

And I'm leaving for vacation tomorrow - going up north to hike for a week - so if you rage, I won't be here to see it.

For the Record

joke  (jk)

n.

1. Something said or done to evoke laughter or amusement, especially an amusing story with a punch line.

2. A mischievous trick; a prank.

3. An amusing or ludicrous incident or situation.

4. Informal

a. Something not to be taken seriously; a triviality: The accident was no joke.

Delved Too Deep...

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Things of Note

I haven't been posting much. Much of that has been due to hanging out with Tezca for the whole day, and then meeting up with her again on Sunday. While I am quite sure only three of you really want to hear about my personal life, as I have only once seen a signpost that looked remotely like Slendy, there is not much else to report.

Sorry to disappoint~

We talked about Marble Hornets, whether or not I should get into EMH despite the chance of being utterly confused... and the blogs. She thought Core Theory was a bunch of idealistic crap that read like a fantasy book. I would like to add that it reads like a rather plausible and well-written fantasy, and the twists in White Elephants were pretty awesome, so our complaints differ.

We also debated Operator Symbol usage in between sweet nothings and myth swaps. I'm sure anyone listening in on the conversation would have been worried about our sanity, as we were getting weird looks the whole time. Might have just been my hair, though.

Regardless, it was fun. I have not lost time nor been teleporting around the place and I managed to get out of the house for two days with no trouble. All in all, it went quite well.

Well, well

I asked Tezca out today. So, uh, this is an official date which means she is my official girlfriend and I hope this goes well.

I shaved my head last week, and though she knows that I did, I am vaguely and irrationally worried that I will put her off instantly when I show up like this. Regardless, with our smog and heat and humidity, it is way cooler than anything else. Besides, now I look very, very butch. Give me a hoodie and I would look like a guy, and this pleases me greatly.

Welcome To my Horde of new followers, regardless of your sanIty. I Snark and mock all equally! Be you alleged proxIeS or sAge or normaL, I wIll bE sure to troll you without any discrimination.

...That was irritating to write. I now have more fodder for a critical post for later.

No Nuzlocke news lately, but I am now on a relatively even footing with the blogosphere and MH to start discussions with Tezca. The lack of video game updates is thanks to you guys and your endless updates and blogs, so I blame you.

Declaration of Intent

Alright. Welcome and thank you to my shiny new followers, all three of you. Whether you are insane, amazingly dedicated writers or telling the truth, it's nice to know I have so many people reading this.

That said - please don't give me too many "you're in too deep, get out" comments because they will eventually become monotonous. Instead, let's play a game.

I keep reading and watching, and nothing happens. I comment on the things I find stupid in the mythos, and hopefully do not draw too many aforementioned remarks about my doom.

I keep reading and watching and delve too deep. I issue an apology, and allow everyone involved to call me an idiotic fucktard who needs her eyes gouged out and her girlfriend slaughtered for infecting her. Calling me a fucktard is a rare honour, you know.

Yes, I'm making light of this. No, I won't stop. I see why Tezca's so interested though, with the tree symbolism and callbacks to German and Egyptian myths. Gives me some ideas, as it were.

Introspective

Because reading weird-ass stories on the Internet put me in a weird-ass mood.

I mean, seriously, creepypasta? That's my treasure hunt? It's not holy literature or a classic or anything of the sort. But I can see what she's getting at, really. A lot of focus on old Fae myths - iron, salt, the like. Water, trees, fire. The distortion stuff, the static, the symbol and what it means.

Fuck my dignity, it's actually kind of cool.

I mean, there's weird Wicca stuff all over, from some blogs, and then some classic government conspiracies, and heavy science and military stuff....

Perception filters, lightning guns, magic circles - it's like a convention.

Anyways, not here to talk about that, fun as it is. I'm here to talk about myself a bit while I snoop around.

So, yeah, Quetzal, the mythology-obsessed nerd. I like ARGs, needling people, having a good laugh.... What can I say? Trolling is fun, too, though I try to keep it intelligent and not "NO U". The world needs more snark.  Original snark, though, not something stupid like calling everyone a faggot. That's the most tired attempt of irritating people, really.

I have a dog, and a rabbit. I like reptiles, especially the big fierce ones that I can only admire from a distance. I don't like the dark, don't like heights, and hate idiots. I like girls - for anyone dense enough to not notice the last few posts - and I like knowing how to kick people's asses, especially when they start making what their pitiful minds interpret as witty comments on my aforementioned liking. I like trolling trolls. I have an older brother, I live with my parents (totally your usual basement dweller sitting on a laptop all the time) and I have a job doing stuff online.

You could say I take refuge in cynicism because my ideals and dreams are too bright and shiny, and I know they'll break.

Or, you know, this could all be a complete lie. Anonymity is awesome, eh?

Questing

Alright, so... this was easier than I expected, but I suppose I was lucky it was on the first page of image results.

Hint was "x inside a circle". There were a lot of math results, but when I went to Google Images...

This thing. Cool, huh? I checked the source website, Encyclopedia Slenderia, which is some sort of... wiki, blog-style, on some weird internet meme. Looks a lot more interesting, if weird, than most memes, so I'll definitely take a look at this. Already have some links to some weird deity/entity and a few Youtube vids so... my afternoon will be fun.

I Might Not Like Iced Coffee

But iced chocolate? Awesome.

Talked with Tezca (still debating on this) and I got my first hint.

She described a symbol that apparently has cropped up with a ton of heavy myths recently, and I'm only allowed to check the first page of Google search results. Should be fun.

Interesting

Apparently I have more to look forward to tomorrow than just coffee and a chat.

If my sole follower at the moment has ever read the Redwall books that compromised a part of my childhood, then you know what kind of riddles and treasure hunts I like. Long, cryptic ones. Hints and "Eureka" moments everywhere - that sort of thing.

So my friend (who needs to come up with a handle; I'm too paranoid to use her real name) decided to give me a clue to start me off on some symbolic story on the internet. I'd like to think that I would adore being in an ARG, so I don't mind checking it out.

I'll see what she's come up with tomorrow~

Note to Self

Charge DS before taking a long bus trip downtown.

Do not spend time outside.

If you have been a total fucking idiot and spent time outside, do not order a hot coffee.

If you have continued being retarded and done so anyways, do not continue walking later.

If you have been stupid and walked around, do not complain when your head hurts and you feel like shit.

And the DS' battery needs to be charged too. Yaaaay.

Yeah, I Was Busy

Um. Part of it was Pokemon Red, though I did grind and beat Falkner in my Nuzlocke - I'm doing pretty well right now.

Bakuphoon - M, Level 16

Impa - F, Level 15

Norima - F, Level 14

Mornir - M, Level 14

Ymir - M, Level 15

Sly - M, Level 13

But, uh, another reason for my silence was that I've been kind of busy being social. I went to the Harry Potter premiere - not at midnight but still, the first day. And it was awesome. And I met this really nice girl there. Like, absurdly nice and geeky and willing to discuss Pokemon challenges and how at the end of the third movie you could wait to see if Harry would say "Nox" at the end of the credits....

You get the gist of it. She likes mythology too! Mostly Scandinavian and fairytale sort of thing - not the modern versions but the Grimm stuff. Black forests and death and cannibalism everywhere. 

So yeah, traded numbers, MSN - we chat a lot. She's a big fan of symbols and different interpretations of them. Like those Japanese and Chinese characters apparently can mean five different things depending on context or minor variations as you write them... and other stuff too, like how snakes are deceitful in western culture but a symbol of guardianship in the east. We're going to meet up next weekend again.

Natsukashii, ne?

Downloaded a Rom of Pokemon Red.

Brb, nostalgia.

Success!

So, I hoped for a Mareep - and I got one. Also, I started theme naming and then realized two of my team don't go with the theme but shh.

It all works together in my head.

Bakuphoon - M, Level 12

Impa - F, Level 11

Norima - F, Level 11

Ymir - M, Level 11

Mornir - M, Level 11

Why yes, Ymir is named for the Ymir forest and that damn fruit from Tales of Symphonia. And its moveset is going to be lacklustre until I get my hands on a Leaf Stone, apparently. Yaaaay. Mornir is named for the Odin-expy in the Fionavar Tapestry by Guy Gavriel Kay. Volt, despite being the name of a Summon Spirit, was just too cliché.

Well, Technically Today!

So, started my Nuzlocke run with basic rules and a No Duplicates clause - thanks Blanche, who is also my first and only follower. Welcome to my dreary blog~

Currently still lurking about Cherrygrove - the SoulSilver intro is rather long and takes a while to get to where I can actually catch Pokemon - but I have three now and I'll be doing some major grinding tomorrow. Also, just watched Sucker Punch! My mind is kind of on overdrive now - had to try to balance everything and work out what was going on. Have to admit I really liked it, though. So yeah... my current (horribly weak team):

Bakuphoon - M, Level 11

Impa - F, Level 4

Norima - F, Level 3

Excuse the weird formatting, not exactly sure how to tinker with pictures yet. I didn't have the best luck, as I was hoping for a Pidgey, but Hoothoot can learn some Psychic moves so that'll work well enough, and Norima might be badass if I can keep her around till she evolves. Huh, it is now 12:30, Sunday morning. How ever did that happen?

...Oh yes, TV Tropes.

Well, I started this post at 11:58 so it still counts. Anyways, should turn in. Updates tomorrow if I get the chance!

I Call Upon Thee

"...in the land of the dead, to release thy fury of thunder!"


Uh, hi! I am Quetzal, a mythology geek who also games. Don't really know what to say here - got my next few posts planned out for gaming. I... write essays in my spare time, on stuff that interests me - like mythology, and mythology in video games and...

I swear I'm not as one-track minded as I appear - it's just that it's a fascinating subject! As for video games, I do like Tales of Symphonia, Pokemon, Legend of Zelda, Mass Effect and Assassin's Creed.

This blog will be for essays, ramblings and my accounts of my Pokemon Nuzlocke run, which I am starting tomorrow. So... random stuff: I'm female. 18, Canadian, I live in the Centre of the Universe (Toronto, to non-Canadians who are not aware of the joke) and I'm about to become a university student~ I go on TV Tropes, though I am not a troper. So... yeah, introduction over. Nuzlocke details shall follow soon.